surfing

list of evolving Worry of my first surf trip last weekend:

• i can barely swim!
• i haven’t had enough swimming practice
• the sea has no floor like in a pool…
• what if i get my period
• tampons
• how will i see?
• do i wear goggles?
• do i need to buy special goggles? (are they expensive)
• should i wear contact lens?
• will sea bacteria breed in them and blind me?
• i don’t even get up that early on regular days…
• oh no my throat feels weird
• why can’t i swim 1 lap with a weird throat
• will i have time to pack
• what if i oversleep
• what if i don’t get enough sleep
• oh shiet i overslept
• oh no i’m late
• what is this traffic
• where is my grab
• where is the train
• is this really my back leg
• wow that sea is so big and never ending
• wow this longboard is bigger than me
• wow this board is heavy
• wow sea water is so…salty
• will salty water help my throat or make it worse
• what if i can’t reach the sea floor
• what if the board hits me
• the board is going to hit me
• i can’t see
• why is everyone so far away
• which one is the instructor
• i can’t stand
• am i moving
• ok i’m tired
• what if i’m too tired to swim back to shore
• swallowing seawater is SO salty (note to self: shrieking or leaving mouth open encourages seawater to be swallowed)
• why am i not moving
• just stand just stand just stand
• how do i know when a wave is coming?
• aww man i missed it
• aww man i just got out there (as oncoming wave washes me back to shore)
• don’t fall into the rock
• am i done when my fingers are wrinkly?
• will i get to surf again before the season ends?